My Life

Walk The Line

2005-11-27T22:30:25Z

So i saw walk the line twice this past week and weekend and i absolutely loved it. I'm not sure why, but all of a sudden i'm all about johnny cash. he is actually really good. i really like his songs. June carter is good too and they have some good duets...maybe it's this new found country fan i've become but i'm really into those two now. it's weird i know.

carebear9903 @ 2005-11-09T20:46:00

2005-11-10T01:46:53Z

just saw jarhead. it was awesome. less intense than full metal jacket, always good.

carebear9903 @ 2005-07-01T09:08:00

2005-07-01T13:13:45Z

i took tarin to see Mr. and Mrs. Smith last night. ugh my third time and i wanna go again. i am absolutely in love with that movie so muchhhh....it's easily my third favorite movie. the godfather first (seriously nothing will ever ever ever replace it) then Boondock Saints, and then mr and mrs smith. ugh it's just that good. so this weekend will be fun, shore with joel(finally) kathleen and jon tomorrow, then bbq-ing sunay night with them and some hot firework action monday night....it'll be good, i love not having work and school....too bad i take my final next thursday and the following monday i'm back in class with the same professor for round 2 haha. oh well it's not so bad, she is joel but female so it's fun the same humor same smarts....it's a good time. i can't wait to give joel his presents. the one kathleen was embarassed to buy so i bought because...what embarasses me? nothing...and then we have to SHOW him his second present at some point...all i know this weekend is if it's hot, i'm laying out and swimming the whole time...i'm not nearly as tan as i should be! anyway....i'm out for now to finish getting ready and heading to work for the rest of the day....ugh i can't wait to get out of there. bless surgery for giving me an excuse to quit! i need two weeks recovery time!! too bad it's plastic surgery....haha just kidding. anyway i'm out now for real.

carebear9903 @ 2005-06-25T12:39:00

2005-06-25T16:41:05Z

i can not wait until joel comes home. i miss him so much it's a little nuts. me kathleen and jon went to oc the other night and found THE PERFECT shirt for joel. it's a little big, but he'll love it and we have our special present for him haha it's so great. me and kathleen are so funny haha. ok so now we're off, getting jon's haircut and some other errands. I LOVE WEEKENDS excpet for that place stealing kathleen away the whole time

carebear9903 @ 2005-06-17T08:04:00

2005-06-17T12:04:30Z

i miss joel it's a little rediculous!!!! i really can't wait to see him.. ugh....it's driving me nuts!!

tomorrow me and kathleen are celebratingher birthday even though it's on sunday. but i planned a fun day together so it'll be great. i can't wait i'm so excited.

i'm quitting kindercare. i might even quit without a back up job. the drama is absolutely rediculous. and i need more money and hours anyway and with school it's impossible to get enough hours to make enough money to survive when you are going to school all morning. the drama is just out of control, the parent's are totall assholes, and their is just a lot of high school bullshit and i'm the second youngest there. which is rediculous when a 34 year old mother of two fights with a 20 year old. omg i'll cut you get the fuck outta my face.

school: hahahahhaa oh god there are so many dumb kids it's crazy. one likes to randomly turn around and scream at kathleen and the first time i wasn't there...he's so lucky. clearly he would have gotten hurt. but yeah i can't stand it when people yell at my friends and family. yell at me all you want i don't give a shit. so yeah..

jonathan, god i love him, is so silly sometimes. me and kathleen are taking him to get sunglasses tonight. he got contacts this week and as weird as i thought he'd look never wearing glasses, his eyes are much easier to see now...those big baby blues! gotta love them!

great weekend

2005-06-12T22:46:42Z

so last night i was absolutely in my glory. jonanthan and i were driving to my house from his house and it was around 8. the sun was still out, the temp had gone down so it was cooler and we had the windows down and the sunroof open...the sky was getting darker but it was around dusk so it was still really light. the air was so thick but it felt great....we had something corporate blasting (kathleen's got me hooked on me and the moon) and i was driving his car. we went the long way ot my house past these huge open fields and gigantic houses. and holding hands. and singing with the music. and just being with him. it was just one of the happiest moments ever. i just had this huge smile of my face and we were driving past the fields and you could see the lightning bugs and it was just so summer. i know this might sound so rediculous to a lot of people. but....it was just amazing. i loved it. it was great....i think that thinking about that drive will make me smile for a long time

getting ready for work

2005-05-26T12:46:18Z

i miss joel. i dont know where he is. it's scary that there might not be any contact with him the whole time. i hope everything is OK and the gypsies didn't get him because....i just don't know if i could handle that or not. meanwhile me and kathleen are the cutest friends ever, we're doing a really cute thing for him for when he comes home. i can't wait! i just can't wait until he can get himself to an internet cafe or a phone and call someone and tell them he's okay. kathleen got ddr yesterday so tonight we're going to play. the plan is to get as good as joel for when he comes home and then we can really battle not like the other night on the boardwalk where joel and kathleen's machine kept fucking up making them unable to verse each other or me....who just sucked ass, got mad, and gave up. but it was a great time. ahhhh ocean city, so wonderful, you have no idea how badly i would love to live there. even in the winter. it'd be wonderful. i went to seaside heights the other day with jon because his grandmother lives literally 10 minutes down the street (and we went to go see her), and UGH omg so gross. it's 10 times worse than wildwood, i immediately called kathleen and was like...look we have to come here together just because it's so hyped up just to see it but we're never coming back here again haha. yeah so this started out as a way for me to talk about how worried i am about joel to maybe get it off my mind and now i dont know what it's turned into. haha oh well time to finish getting ready to go to work. ew and ugh i gotta get surgery in the summer! fuck that bullshit. i fucking hate my body lol.....well that's all talk to yas later.

awwwwwwwww

2005-05-05T21:25:07Z

thank you so much ruecian

awww we're so cute! i love my baby's baby blues we went down the shore last weekend and it poured but we still have a great time together, we saw the ocean for like 5 minutes :-( it was just too cold and we were just not prepared!! but we had a great time. we are going back down this weekend too and then my nephew bobby's first holy communion on sunday. packed weekend but i have off on monday for a final from 2-5. i handed in my stat final and took my bio final. the only one i'm worried about is soc tomorrow. but it'll be fine, i'm sure. still havent' heard from the school of social work. they are waiting for this semester grades which scared me a little. i dont know, oh well if i get in i get in, if not then screw it. i dont feel either way about it. soc is tomorrow though, early in the morning 9-12 then i work 1-6, then down the shore with Jon! we are going to Creanies, too sunday night to see kathleen at the new store. at least i won't have to worry about if she's in drivethru or not hahaha. so yeah summer hasn't quite started yet, but i'm feeling good about it anyway. i just wish i could make a little more money! oh well....so yeah that's all for now.

carebear9903 @ 2005-05-02T12:54:00

2005-05-02T16:55:24Z

so me and jon took this adorable picture of the both of us. we're so cute but i dont know how to get it in the livejournal so that everyone can seee it! HELP

wow....my life is so frustrating

2005-04-14T11:47:55Z

so it all started on tuesday when i went to the school of social work to see if they had gotten my recommendation from new brunswick yet. and the secretary who knows me very well by now was like oh yeah we finally got it...but...we lost your file. i was like hwat?!!? she swears she gave the file to the guy who decides who gets in and who doesn't but apparently he didn't have it. she thought it might have exchanged hands and went to someone else but they didn't have it either so she told me to check back the following day and she was sure it would be there. so yesterdayi walked back in and she's like no we still can't find it....then proceeds to ask me if i had saved my personal statement on my computer and says i'll have to refill out the whole application. i was like wow....so i had to figure out where i saved my personal statement, ask my boss if she could rewrite my recommendation, reorder my transcrfits, and refill out the application. i call my mom and just break down, like i can't believe my luck it's horrible. i started crying and then i had to go to an appointment with my professor. so i went to my professor's office and his secretary looks at me like why are you here? so i told her i had an appointment with dr ryan at 1250 and she proceeds to tell me he's going to be out of the office all day due to some convention thing. so i doubted myself and told her i must have read the email wrong. so i ran to the computer lab where it took 15 minutes to get a computer, lookedup my email and saw that i was right. so i decided to go back and at least write him a note saying i was there. so i went back and he's sitting in his office and looks at me and goes....we had an appointment at 1250...his secretary is right there and she doesn't say anything! i was like well your secretary here told me you'd be out of the office so i left. and he's like well i was here at 1250 and i dont have anytime to talk to you right now. we'll have to do this on monday, send me an email reminding me will you? i'm....omg whatever. so i walk out and of course start crying again, called my mom back and was a mess. i was so angry. i just wanted to crawl under a rock. like professors don't give two shits about students and apparently the heads of departments don't give two shits about people's futures. meanwhile i'll probably either get rejected or weightlisted for the school of social work because they haven't even looked at my file yet and they've already sent out a bunch of acceptances and they only accept 12. looks like i'll be at rutgers for yet another year. ugh! so aggrivated that i got into a fight with my mom, and jonathan, and everyone i came into contact with. thankfully i have the best boyfriend in the world and he just calmly let me freak out then just held me until i went to sleep and slipped out of my room without waking me.....he's amazing.

good news of the day: Tate walked.

hospital again

2005-03-26T05:20:41Z

so this morning i was back in the emergency room. i dont know what the hell is wrong with me and i severely hope that once i see a specialist, i'll be okay. sad...

carebear9903 @ 2005-03-22T12:06:00

2005-03-22T17:07:18Z

i honestly don't know what i'm going to do if i don't get into the school of social work. and i don't know if i will.....

first day back

2005-03-21T14:51:42Z

so the weather is really nice today. it makes me so happy when it's nice out that i don't even care that i am at school, althought i can't wait until summer. i just want to graduate and start working, get married, have a few kids. i want to grow up so fast, not really gorw up, but just bypass these next two years haha. i jsut hate school, i hate being here, and i wanna start my career now! anyway, classes haven't started yet so i'm just sitting in the computer lab, my social work application is all finished and i'm going to go hand it in today, so i'm really excited about that, that's one thing off the list, my car has been spring cleaned by an amazing boyfriend (who is a neat freak) haha but i love him anways. yeah we switched cars saturday night and he spent the night cleaning it while i was babysitting, i love him so much! so that's another thing off the list. i've been getting sick an average of every two weeks recently and i really need to clean and lysol my bedroom, but next weekend is booked...kind of. or i just don't feel like doing it right now haha. anyways now class is about to start so i'm off. have a good day everyone!

lots of fun lately

2005-03-20T05:02:40Z

this has been one of the hardest and one of the most fun spring breaks in a while. two nights ago me kathleen and joel took (what seems to be our monthly) trip to ocean city, got mack and manco's pizza and had a great time. we had to pee so badly that we just peed on the beach because no public bathrooms were open. it was fun, kathleen broke the law haha. we got lost, talked way too much, made lots of fun comments and had just a really great time. last night me kathleen and jon went to get some pizza for dinner then picked joel up for the ring two. omg so fucking scary, i didn't wanna see it and dreaded it as soon as we made plans to see it. just scary as hell. anyway, i got really upset because i actually had forgotten oma died until we past by her street and i was just like hey my oma lives down there....then it hit me, like a fucking brick. today was a really good day too, i got up and showered and went to see jon and we went shopping and got lunch, relaxed at his house then i went to babysit peter (my favorite baby from kindercare) and that was fun. now i'm home and tomorrow is church and all the homework and take home tests that i neglected this past week, instead i racked up some nice hours at work and lots of memories with my greatests. now i'm watching tv and relaxing, and talking to jon. it's been a great week, started off really horribly with the death of my oma. but it's okay. i think i'm dealing pretty well with it. sometimes i'm okay and sometimes i am still in disbelief. takes time...

good night all

haha i'm not high i just think it's hilarious my teddy bear has a bong in this mood picture

carebear9903 @ 2005-03-10T12:07:00

2005-03-10T17:09:21Z

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i went to class this morning after a horrible nights sleep. i was even up with joel. if i hadn't been drugged beyond belief with codene cough medicine i would have gone over his house. it was like 3 in the morning. i just remember that i wasn't making any sense! haha....well i gotta go to work now so bye

carebear9903 @ 2005-03-10T11:53:00

2005-03-10T16:55:21Z

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i'm on spring break. yay.

carebear9903 @ 2005-02-14T18:33:00

2005-02-14T23:34:02Z

i got a dozen red roses and the most beautiful card in the world!! :-D

carebear9903 @ 2005-02-14T09:40:00

2005-02-14T14:53:46Z

yay happy valentine's day!! i'm in the computer lab, i'm at school way to early haha, but the weather sucked so i figured there'd be an accident on 42 and i should just leave. and guess what i was right. but i still got here with plenty of time to spare so i picked up my refund check from my loans and requested my transcripts get sent to school of social work. i'm in the process of applying right now. the only thing that sucks about that is that they will only see my grades from NB when they make my decision and i'd much rather them look at this semester since i'm doing 100% better academically. plus i'm taking 4 prerequs this semester. oh well. my essay will kick ass as will my recommendations so hopefully i'll be okay and by the end of the semester my GPA will be where it needs to be thank god. that's the one reason that i'll never regret moving home and coming to camden. my grades are a million times better because i just have that much more time to study and do work. plus i love my professors. and the other kids in my class make me feel smart as hell. which is kinda hard after i read carolyn's journal entries about prague and kept thinking she was spelling hotel wrong when she typed Hostel because i had no idea what one was!!! thanks to kathleen and joel for clearing that one up!!! yeah but camden isn't that bad when you actually get used to it. i mean i like being here for classes but love going home afterwards. i think my hours might get cut at kindercare which really sucks when i'm trying to plan fun surprises and the money just isn't there to plan with. we lost a full time baby, we have no idea why, the mother (Who is 18) said something about lost diapers, but yet she never siad anything to me or the girl cassandra that i work with, and we've never asked her for diapers, so i don't understand why she thought we lost them, but that's what she told my boss and told me and cassandra that she was always sick. welcome to day care. whatever i know it wasn't my fault because that night the mother of one of our other babies asked if i could become their babysitter, so obviously i am doing something right. it just sucks that i might lose this money now! but hey whatever. gotta roll with the punches. wow i haven't updated in so long, i highly doubt anyone even still reads my journal but i'll tell you one person that updates WAY TOO MUCH!! KARLOS!! WHAT ARE YOU DOING!!! my entire friends page is covered with karl's journal entries haha and whats with joel never updating? the last update is from when we went to the shore, AGES AGO!! oh well i still love you too like crazy. i dont know, there is just something about my life right now thats makes me really happy. i wish i could say the same for my all of my friends. naz and gunjan are in sororities now (or are pledging) naz has gotten a lot of offers of girls in her sorority that want to be her big already haha, i guess she has no worries, but gunjan is pledging Gamma Phi Beta and Naz is pledging Zeta Tau Alpha....i wish them the best of luck. Emma i love you too sweetie. i miss my girls a lot, but i know they are busy with their own stuff and don't wanna try and take up any of their weekends any time soon. jon and i are spending saturday together, he's planning something, i'm just not sure what, it's a year from the day we actually met. and we are going to do our valentine's day stuff then too, just makes things easier and tonight i'm going to the movies with kathleen so we can FINALLY see the aviator which i've heard nothing but amazing things about. just never had the time or energy to sit through a long movie before. but i'm off tomorrow due to my professor's wife's birthday (yay to her!) and on account i dont go to bio, ever. so i'm happy about that. well it's almost time for class now. so i'm off.

carebear9903 @ 2005-02-06T10:26:00

2005-02-06T15:39:21Z

so i spent the weekend with kathleen and so much fun. ugh we're such dorks though, who has a half a bottle of mudslides and doesn't drink them! haha but it was a good time, lots of vin diesel and relaxation. we went to ocean city yesterday and looked for our palmist, but they had just closed for the day. dude sooo many people were down there!! i guess just cause it was such a nice day everyone had the same idea. the beach was so weird, it was all eroded and the ocean just took huge chunks of the sand...so there were huge cliffs everywhere, it was very strange. we hit up the arcades haha who knew just how much fun they could be? honestly? we did all the riding games, like motorcycles and skiing, and skakebaording and stuff. it was fun. but fisrt and foremost, we had MACK N MANCOS!! best pizza in the world!! omg so good. it was the first pizza i have eaten since i went into the hospital. but anyways...we had a good time, the plan was to go see the aviator, but since we got up at 8 in the morning and had some chick fil a that didn't mesh well with our stomaches, after a fun trip to the dollar store (had to get some stuff for the kids for vday) we decided to just go home and relax the rest of the night. but i had a great time. it was a lot of fun. i am just so excited about summer....i just want it to be warm and sunny and i want to be 21!! omg....we're getting so old, i am going to be 21!! don't you guys remember when i was flipping out because i was going to be 20?! .....good times though, it's amazing when i look back and realize just how long i've been friends with those so close to my heart. some since 6th grade, some since 9th....but wow. it's just crazy. okay well i gotta get some work done before the big game tonight :-)

carebear9903 @ 2005-02-03T19:40:00

2005-02-04T00:42:31Z

really sick. feel like shit. i'm so mad me and kathleen are going to spend the weekend today and i'm getting sick as a dog :-( grr....one more day of classes and my weekend is over not to mention i get paid this tomorrow!! yes...too bad i get out of work to late to deposit it! haha...oh well. but on a really great note, i got a B on my first bio test! ....i'm so happy. this semester is already looking up! soo happy...but still sick, so going to bed...on a side note it's quite sad that jon is out buying his mom a birthday present, and he's gotta rely on me to tell whether she'll like it or not. he said if he finds something, before he buys it he's going to call me for approval. boys are so silly.

carebear9903 @ 2005-01-28T08:14:00

2005-01-28T13:15:08Z

everything happens for a reason

in the end everything will be okay, if it's not okay, it's not the end

i love my friends. always keeping me so strong. thank you.

carebear9903 @ 2005-01-23T18:47:00

2005-01-23T23:47:48Z

SUPER BOWL XXXIX!!!!!

E-A-G-L-E-S EAGLES!!!

my father cried. the last time they got into the super bowl, tarin was 6 months old!

Serious Budget

2005-01-23T20:03:48Z

For the next month i have put myself on a very serious budget. i got paid on friday and am putting that money into the bank except for $52 to pay tarin back. Then i will take out $40 for gas money only and will have to make that gas money last for two weeks. $20 a week for gas should keep me good going back and forth to camden to blackwood to browns mills and home. school, work, and travelling to jon's will just have to work on $20 a week. if not, then guess what i'm not going. Kathleen's house doesn't even count as gas money because it's .5 seconds away. anyway. when i get paid on February 4th i will take out $70 to pay my parents back for getting my transmission back and again $40 for gas for the following two weeks. but other than paying back debts and gas money i will not buy one thing for the next month, possibly month and a half because i severely need to start saving money for the summer. So that's my budget i've just came up with. As for now, IT"S GAME TIME BABYYYYYYY!!

E-A-G-L-E-S EAGLES!!!!!!

Day1 @ camden

2005-01-19T01:42:52Z

my first day. wow it was so strange being in school with kathleen again, but very comforting, i was nervous as hell and don't think i could have gotten through so well without her. classes were interesting, nothing like new brunswick, i missed naz and gunjan a lot today, thinking about all the fun we had going to classes together with gunjan and waking up/falling asleep with naz....just memories i'll never forget. but it's all good because i have a really good schedule. i actually loved going to school for a few hours and changing up the scene with work and then hitting up the gym. it kept me busy. i like being busy and i still got home by 745 which will be a good enough amount of time to get studying done and stuff. i have a really good feeling about this semester and i have no regrets. but i miss my girls a lot. i'm going up to nb next weekend to celebrate jess's 21st!! and it'll be a lot of fun. i need to get a look at this girl who is sleeping in my bed haha...from what i've heard she's not as loud as me and is kind of quiet....haha amazing. but then again not a lot of people are as loud or talk as much as i do...right brianna....anyways, classes were interesting, someone called out my name and it was like i was shot. i didn't want to find out who it was in fear i'd wind up sitting with someone i didn't like and it's just be an awkward situation. so i sat anywhere and what fun i happened to sit in the row right next to the one ryan mcnally was sitting in. what fun. but my classes seem interesting. bio was boring, but the book is an easy reader and we talked about covalent bonding. wow. but work was great too. i was happy to get back wtih my babies at the end of the day. they are so cute and can make anyone smile. there is a little drama in my room, but wahtever it'll either pass or not. i'm not involved and i stay out of everything. so i'm good. but my kids are so cute and i love my job more than anything. i really do. and then i headed over to the gym and worked out for an hour which was a good stress reliever, ig ot home, ate dinner, made my lunch for tomorrow, and took a shower. so here i am and it's till only quarter to nine....plenty of time for work. i'm off now, i'm going to start some reading and relax.

carebear9903 @ 2004-12-27T19:03:00

2004-12-28T00:03:57Z

i'm psycho, there is seriously something wrong with me.